Lovesick

Tuesday Jan 31 2023

12:34AM

Lovesick. Can one be so fond and emotionally connected to someone that they physically cannot be without them? The last few days have been sickening, both emotionally and physically. The distance between us makes it harder everyday to rise, and even harder to fall asleep. The thought of being away from you pains me; got me counting down the days where I can once again embrace you, hold you close to my heart. If I was out on war, I'd go right to the front lines, walk into the lions cage, so I don't have to spend another day away from you. I find myself getting lost in daydreams; my breathe a remnant of yours; the frozen trees creating shadows in the winter moonlight resembles the depth of my heart. It makes me sick, to know you have that much control over me, and in turn giving me no control at all. My emotional well being so closely linked to your emotional state, I can't fathom the idea of you not smiling. It is indeed frightening, that a single word from you can turn this room into a hurricane, that regardless of what you say, it will always be how you say it. Sometimes I wish I could take this beating heart and put it in the palm of your hand, for you hold it nonetheless. So then I could have a reason for why you make me feel the way I do. So then when you hold it close in warmth, and I feel cold and lost when away, I can say it's because of you I feel this way.