Friday June 16 2023
1:07PM
the years
wrapped away in the umbrella of all my fears
i feel the end might be near
if i treated someone else
the way i treat myself
i would never forgive myself
i feel fraudulent
it's so much easier to tell others how to love
than to actually practice it yourself
when it comes to myself
i hide
away in corners hugging myself like an embryo
in fear that no one else will
all the times our souls became intertwined
inseparable from each other
we keep hurting each other and yet we keep coming back
is that insanity
no i tell myself
that is love
knowing exactly what is right and wrong
and yet still doing what the heart yearns for
some would want no parts of that
some days neither do i
but then i'm reminded
clear as the sky on a cloudless day
or in this case, clear as the sky on a star full night
of all the beautiful moments spent
embracing one another
as our hearts palpitate as one
the shoulders i've offered you to cry on
the shoulders i've cried on
they could fill the oceans twice over
i'm reminded
of all the times i re-established myself
after every heartbreak
and came out a better me
slightly more broken yes
but better
then i'm reminded of why i do this
why i still choose you
why i still choose love
despite it seeming like it doesn't want to choose me
i know not where this will go
but i have a feeling it'll go as it should.
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